Today was a very difficult day. Mom is slowly declining and it's painful to watch. I had a very odd moment with her just a second ago. She was feeling anxious so I was going to giver a pill to calm her nerves. I placed the pill in the palm of her hand and she took her and and put it to her mouth. She put her fingertips at her mouth as if she had pinched the pill from her fingers. The pill then fell from her hand. I told her to allow me to give her the pill again. She looked at me and yelled that it was in her mouth and if I gave her another one, that she would choke. She was afraid. She didn't know what was going on. That alone, broke my heart.

She's been asking over and over again all day "What happened" referring to her sudden decline Today. She told me she was afraid....

Today, I don't know what to do....I'm afraid too.